maybe i had to blame my self for something that i cant explain clearly.
something that suppose to be easy to say, but i cant make it easy.
it’s so hard, that people cant recognize and know me.
why cant i talk clearly?
even for something that i had to say, i had to do something, because sometime words doesnt really help me. but now days, surely people also need your words too, rite?
even worse, my act cant be understood for some people too_because they dont know my reason.
then, it lead me to a horrible fact that, i dont know how to show that i love people.
i’m a person who think randomly. sometimes think not only about one step ahead, but many step ahead. mean while most people, want something instant. doesnt match with what i do/say for some one that i love. my words/acts maybe took a long time to be proven its truth. but as i said, people want something fast, something that they can understand easily. and i don’t know why, i’m not yet able to do that.
i’m learning. learn to say. learn to think. learn to do. directly. without before i go to the point i go randomly elsewhere. meanwhile i could be better, then let me be in my own world. doing everything in my own way. if you could understand, please join me. if you dont, you may mad, and i will stay calm. because i know, not all people understand me. but i understand you. we are different.